Colleen Hoover: It ends with us
I feel like everyone fakes who they really are, when deep down we’re all equal amounts of screwed up. Some of us are just bette rat hiding it than others. (p. 16)
There is no such thing as bad people. We’re all just people who sometimes do bad things. (...) No one is exclusively bad, nor is anyone exclusively good. Some are just forced to work harder at suppressing the bad. (p. 17)
He reached over and tucked my hair behind my ear. I liked it when he did that and I suddenly wasn’t nearly as mad anymore. Then he put his arm ardoung me and pulled me to him so that my head was resting on his shoulder. I don’t know how he calmed me down without even talking, but he did.
Some people just have a calming presence about them and he’s one of those people. (p. 65)
„We’re just alike. Plants and humans. Plants need to be loved the right way in order to survive. So do humans. We rely on our parents from birth to love us enough to keep us alive. And if our parents show us the right kind of love, we turn out as better humans overall. But if we’re neglected... we end up homeless and incapable of anything meaningful.“
„You see that tree over there? ... It grew on ist own. Most plants do need a lot of care to survive. But some things, like trees, are strong enoguth to do it by just relying on themselves and nobody else.“ I had no idea if he knew what I was trying to say without me coming out and saying it. But I just wanted him to know that I thought he was strong enough to survive whatever was going on in his life. I didn’t know him well, but I could tell he was resilient. Way more than I would ever be if I were in his situation. (p. 105-106)
„Atlas, you can’t do that! You can’t come to my house when my parents are home!“ Atlas got real quiet and then said, „I heard you scream, Lily.“ He said it like me being in danger trumped anything else. (p. 112)
„Just keep swimming.“ It’s what Dory says to Marlin in Finding Nemo. „Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming.“ (...) After today, I think that’s my favourite cartoon. Because I’ve been feeling like drowning lately, and sometimes people need a reminder that they just need to keep swimming. (p. 138)
We watched Finding Nemo and when that part came up where Marlin was looking for Nemo and he was feeling really defeated, Dory said to him, „When life gets you down do you wanna know what you’ve gotta do? ... Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming.“ (p. 141)
I held on to the heart while we kissed, wanting to beliebe it was a gift for no reason at all. But part of me was scared it was a gift to remember him by when he leaves for Boston.
I didn’t want to remember him. If I had to remember him, it would mean he wasn’t a part of my life anymore.“ (p. 152)
All humans make mistakes. What determines a person’s character aren’t the mistakes we make. It’s how we take those mistakes and turn them into lessons rather than excuses. (p. 192)
I knew what he was saying. That he was leaving for the military and he didn’t want me to hold on to him while he was gone. He wasn’t really breaking up with me because we weren’t ever really together. We’d just been two people who helped each other when we needed it and got our hearts fused together along the way.
It was hard, being let go by someone who had never really grabbed hold of me completely in the first place. In all the time we’ve spent together, I think we both sort of knew this wasn’t a forever thing. (p. 213)
Imagine all the people you meet in your life. There are so many. They come in like waves, trickling in and out with the tide. Some waves are much bigger and make more or an impact than others. Sometimes the waves bring with them things from deep in the bottom of the sea and they leave those things tossed onto the shore. Imprints against the grains of sand that prove the waves had once been there, long after the tide recedes. (...) He was letting me know that I was the biggest wave he’d ever come across. And I brought so much with me that my impressions would always be there, even when the tide rolled out. (p. 214-215)
I love him. I still do and I always will. He was a huge wave that left a lot of imprints on my life, and I’ll feel the weight of that love until I die. I’ve accepted that.
But things are different now. After today when he walked out of my office, I thought long and hard about us. I think our lives are where they’re supposed to be. (...) Just because we didn’t end up on the same wave, doesn’t mean we aren’t still a part of the same ocean. (...)
Sometimes an unexpected wave comes along, sucks you up and refuses to spit you back out. Ryle is my unexpected tidal wave, and right now I’m skimming the beautiful surface. (p. 218)